Happy 2023! ✨ Setting my intentions on this Aries New Moon ✨ thank you for helping all my wishes come true!

As I embody these dreams, and fulfill them too - I will bold them through!🦋

Putting it out to the universe that this is what I desire…I will be flexible, patient and trusting on how and when it comes to me. Thank you! I love you!

05/2022: With my birthday, right around the corner on May 12th, and us being 5 months into 2022 already, I decided to revisit my vision board I created at the beginning of the year. Unsurprisingly, I can honestly say and cross out (or bold) items I have already done which makes me pretty darn proud of myself and adds to the excitement for what is still left to come!

With 7 months left of 2022, and a renewed sense of purpose, direction and drive within me, I beyond am excited to continue to bring all of my dreams to life, one conscious and grateful day at a time.

With love, Elysian on Earth

12/31/2022 Reflection: I am so proud of myself and my expressive expansion this past year. I have put in a lot of effort towards creating a space and time for me to flow, let go, and integrate all that I have gone through and experienced thus far into something tangible and concrete. My blog has a lot more posts than it did last year. I also have created a lot of jewelry (given it to loved ones, and listed some on Etsy), and worked on all of my bigger dream projects too ie: my novels, + poetry book(s). Slowly but surely, and with fun and faith- things are coming along, and together. For my astrology Goddess painting series I also have: Taurus, Virgo, Leo, and Cancer completed. Aries and Capricorn are in progress, and I am so excited to continue to honor my creative process, create beauty, and learn along the way in 2023 too! 

12/31/2022 Reflection: Alex and I have officially lived together since April! After 5 years doing long distance, it’s so nice to be able to hang out with your best friend whenever you want. I’m also super proud of the home, comfort, love, and safety we are creating individually and together. It makes me happy to know people feel serenity and peace when they come over!

This last year I started growing my own green onions (so good and so easy!), we also started composting regularly and in our own yard, we also released a lot (old items), donated a ton of items, and made choices better aligned with a healthy and thriving home environment (new plants, sustainable seating, reducing toxic/chemical exposure from cleaning/home/beauty products). Overall, feeling so thankful, blessed and loved and can’t wait to see how we continue to create a Elysian (heaven) on Earth together. 

A closed loop system- compost, add animal and human manure to enhance soil quality. Biogeometry enhanced.

Be married to Alex & live a long, happy life together that makes a great impact on the world ♡
Have 3 kids ♡
Home school my children ♡ or a Montessori school
Have a strong and like minded, abundant and happy community/circle of friends and business partners ♡
Go on a family/friends' trip every year!
Live close to those I love.

Live life as a spiritual practice. (This is an ideology I have really stepped into the past year 2021).
Be financially free.
Protect, uplift and nurture my family, friends, the world & community.

Do the front split
​Take an aerial silk dance class
Back bend and touch toes to head
Hold a handstand & explore poses within it
Own a longboard
Be able to snowboard
Get my own bicycle

Reminder that all that you seek is also seeking you. The goodness of your heart shines & attracts the things, experiences, and people you want like a light to a flame. For what you can imagine you can bring to reality. You just have to believe & plant the seeds knowing they'll bloom in the wildest & most beautiful of ways. Hold the vision but be flexible in how this comes to life.
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As such, the first step to manifesting that is outlining and really being true to what you want from this life. With that I invite you to set aside time for yourself to create what that looks like. Doing this with a vision board helps move your mental thinking into something concrete & tangible, something you can begin to imagine and experience though your senses- here, now. With that, I invite you to continue to read to see my own personal vision board. My hope is that it inspires you to dare to dream big and to imagine what your dream life looks like.

With all my love,
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Elysian on Earth ☽

⊹ I resell furniture.
​I have started flipping & selling furniture on OfferUp. Right now, it has just been furniture I have owned, but now that I know my Mazda 3 can fold down in the back,  I can get bigger pieces.  (tell me why I've had this car for 3 years and I'm just now finding out, I think the universe knew it would have given me too much power and potential to buy big items I don't need haha)

07/22/2020 Update: I got a new car. A ford focus hatchback se, very similar in shape to my old car that I gave to my little sister! So I can still use it to get bigger pieces which I'm super excited about. I just have to get a sander, staple gun, and painting materials so that I am able to refinish them in the way I want! 

​⊹ I do pottery. 
This is something I want to get into this coming year. I would love to make mugs and pots for my plants! I am thinking of making Greek statue inspired heads and bodies as well as flowers & hands for incense/crystals! 

1/2/2021 Update: This is something I am going to do this year in 2021! 

1/10/2022 Update: Still need to find a place I really like! Going to make it a goal to go this year! 

​⊹ ​I paint & draw
​I have been sketching more often than I have in years. I also have a bunch of paintings in progress, but I am beyond happy with how they are coming along. I mostly paint with acrylics but am playing around with oil also. I would love to get to a point where I am making a significant amount of extra income on the pieces that I paint! 

I recently painted my older sister an ocean landscape for her birthday, and am painting my little sister a Winter landscape. It's been really fun to experiment and play. I think a large part of why I haven't done art in so long is because I am so focused on the result rather than the process, and that has definitely held me back! I love being organized (but I'm also chaotic at the same time within that organization by doing 5 million things at once) so holding space to just set aside time to paint and play in peace, channeling my entire being onto the canvas, has been really empowering in letting go of my need for perfection, and time constraints! 

​⊹ I do digital art.
I would love to possibly get an iPad, apple pencil and use Procreate to create my own tarot or oracle deck as well as post images for my art instagram!
1/2/2021 Update: Adding this to my 2021 vision board! :) I want to sell stickers and prints!

1/10/2022 Update: I officially own an iPad now! Alex got it got me for my birthday In May 2021. I haven’t sold any stickers or prints but I’ve definitely been practicing my art on it! 

​​⊹ I crochet/knit
I would love to be able to crochet and knit hanging baskets for my plants, as well as create cute wall art & bralettes/bikini pieces! 
1/2/2021 UPDATE: I don't think this is something I would like to pursue/explore anymore! This is natural considering we grow and change and as such our interests will often reflect this. 

​⊹ I garden. 
I just started getting into gardening this year, but I definitely have to read a lot more on plant care before I expand my plant family in my home. I will honestly say I have had my fair share of dead plant babies. (breaks my heart every time) So, I definitely need to make sure I am nurturing my plants in the way that they want and need the most. ​I wish they could just speak to me and tell me. But, I am getting better at knowing when they are dry and need water or when to stop watering them. It is definitely a journey, relationship, and conversation I look forward to continuing and growing into this next year as I fill my space with more of these beautiful & amazing little babies. Go take a peak at my plants page to see more on how this area of my life is going! 

​⊹ ​I dance. 
I recently got a pole in my living room (July 2019), and that's something I've wanted to do since I was in middle/high school and watched Jenyne Butterfly perform to "Dog Days" by Florence and the Machine. So although it took a while to manifest, like most things I'm very interested in, I made it happen!  It is actually so magical, empowering, stunning and playful to watch. I definitely do want to branch out more and take dance classes like (hip hop, ballet, and more!)

12/2019 UPDATE: I am super proud of myself to say I have quite a few tricks up my sleeve for pole and can even hang upside down with just my legs! 

7/22/2020 UPDATE: My roomie Lindsi & I moved into a new place in March 2020 and our ceiling height isn't the same as our pole height so we don't have it up currently. We're thinking of possibly doing aerial silk dancing! But, I definitely want to practice more, stretch, and look into opening myself up to other forms of dance in 2020, since I did not do that in 2019! 

​⊹I write. 
This year I've really gotten into writing poetry. Although I have a lot of half finished pieces, or short phrases, I do a lot of writing and thinking on the daily and record lines that will randomly come through to me that I eventually piece together. It's been really fun exploring the language/feelings and energies of different words which is the beautiful part of poetry! 

I also would love to write my own book. I have ideas and concepts that I have been collecting for quite some time now, but I think it is time to start hiding and start typing these thoughts of mine into the physical. 

It's funny because I'm realizing I have a lot of energy and if I don't channel and focus it into something it builds and builds within me (which can be destructive af)! Knowing myself, I will probably be writing multiple books at one time because I am like a hummingbird zipping from one idea or concept to the next, then returning back, leaving, and coming back again. It looks wild and crazy, but I actually am capable of getting a lot done in a small amount of time (method to the madness) and the more I step back, settle into the flow and look at myself I realize how much of a whimsical, funny little creature I am. 

​⊹I blog. 
​It's funny because I actually tried to start a blog in high school but had no idea what to write about. I think it's because at the time, i was writing for others, and not myself. (I think it was named something along the lines of makeuplikebarbie and had only to do with beauty lol) so this blog is definitely more authentically me, I am not boxing myself in anyway, but am allowing myself the freedom and space to collect many contrasting ideas in one space. I love so many different things and I am beyond happy to be able to write both for myself while also sharing what I love and learn with others! ​

​⊹My apartment is furnished.  
Fall 2019: Shout out to Kyle who gave us a lot of her super cute furniture when she moved.
​Now we just need to put the mirrors and lights up! 

Winter 2019: Our apartment at the Palms is constantly changing, but I really love walking into the place now. Although there are still some things we need to do (like get a large wall mirror/hang our mirrors up and finish our wall floral art), it is my safe haven from the world outside. (especially my bedroom) I will probably include a bedroom tour/home tour on this at some point because I do genuinely love interior design and creating an environment that makes people feel free and safe at the same time! 

7/2020 Update: Our place is so cute! I love my room a lot especially and am planning on finally doing an apartment/room tour when I get back to Arizona in August.

​⊹I have lots of plants.
I love my kitchen set up! We also have quite a few plants on our patio, and I have a couple in my room. (The lighting is not that great in there)
I also finally got a Monstera plant and a Chinese money plant /ivy (although these last two are in Alex's apartment but they are thriving under my care!) I plan on getting some more for myself when I go back to Arizona as well as a fern of some sort! 
You can see all my plants in my blog menu by clicking the plants page above! :) 

​⊹I live in a home. 
Although upfront costs for a house are a lot (you need two months of rent as a down payment typically), it is cheaper in the long run with rent. It would also be nice to have the privacy of my own home, and not have people around me in an apartment! I would also love to be able to be bare and free in my own backyard in order to soak up all the magical solar and lunar energies! 

I would also love to be able to grow more plants in my own yard! (possibly a garden)
Furthermore, on full moon nights, I will be able to charge all my crystals safely under the moonlight knowing they will still be there the next day. (I am currently unable to do this in the apartment complex because I do not want people to take or touch them) 

1/2/2021 UPDATE: This is something I am unsure of when will happen! There are many pros and cons to both apartments and homes but I do look forward to the day when I am a home owner! :)

​⊹I am a middle school teacher. 
I am beyond grateful and blessed to have been hired to teach Advanced English 20 minutes from my home in the district that I wanted. I am so excited to meet my students, to not only teach them, but to also learn from them as well and although I have A LOT to do before school starts (August 5th) I know I am ready and capable to be the best teacher/support I can possibly be and I can not wait to create a classroom environment in which students feel listened to and cared for, engaged, inspired, and empowered by both themselves, each other and me! 

Winter 2019: Teaching has honestly been some of the most stressful and frustrating thing at times, and I would be lying if I did not say I often I wonder if it is even the right career path for me.  I have cried and cried out of frustration and broken down many times, not because of the kids, but because of the time, work and income!  Although I am certain I will not be a teacher for decades, as this is not my calling, it is right now and I am learning so much from my students each day, and so much about myself! I've really learned how crucial self care is. (you cannot pour from an empty cup) and how important it is to just relax, be present, listen, stay true to yourself, have fun, and compartmentalize!

I think with teaching, you realize how much responsibility you have in the minds of the young, and because of that I stressed myself out  because I wanted to make sure I was doing the best that I could in helping them grow and understand themselves, and how they learn. I've realized that it is important to not put so much pressure on myself (stressing doesn't change anything, it just makes it twice as worse and you feel horrible about yourself) and to let go, knowing that just by being myself I am making an impact on these kids each and every day.

Furthermore, today was such an amazing day. It was one of those times I really realized the seeds I have been planting these past couple months when I felt lost, confused, and frustrated with my career. And much like a plant although I couldn't see it then, I kept watering with good faith, so it has been nice to see the fruits of my labor begin to bloom! 

It started with one of my students asking me to come to her dance recital earlier this week. Then, today she even got me a ticket to come! I am beyond excited to see her perform. She is such an amazing, intelligent, beautiful young woman with such a strong heart and mind and I can not wait to see the impact she makes on the world! It also means the world to me that she loves me so much, because I love her and all my students with all my heart.
We then had an after school meeting with one of my students (he is such a wise, tender, and loving soul) and his parents came to me after and told me they appreciated me so much. They said that he talked about me often and they loved how kind, inspiring, and caring I am. It made me so happy I could cry. (I did a little in my classroom after) I felt my heart beaming and pouring out with love, and I felt like a little sun beam. I am so excited to see how the rest of the year continues and look forward to further giving up this concept of control and the rigid idea of what I think being a good teacher means, because I already am just by being who I am! 

07/2020 Update: Amidst all the Covid chaos with returning to school I feel surprisingly at peace. I think that I have such faith and trust in myself to figure out whatever comes my way. We are also going to be online til at least September 3rd so I am looking forward to not commuting (I don't like driving too much to be honest) and having more flexibility and freedom in my day/space because we are online! 

​⊹I have multiple sources of income. Money comes easily and readily to me. 
I want to sell art, jewelry, books, furniture and more! I have so much creative energy inside of me that I know I need a lot of different ventures to pour my energy into, otherwise I feel unhappy, blocked, and stressed. (when it builds with nowhere to go) 

I have a significant amount in savings (Planning on writing an amount and keeping it under my pillow in my sacred box) so that I can further help others, travel, and have more safety/security. I treat others randomly and enjoy bringing joy to people. Even though money is not the most important thing to offer someone, it is one of the biggest forms of value in our society and this 3d world, so I would be lying if I said I did not want to be rich. But to be rich, in order to give onto others. I, myself, am quite simple and do not need lots to be happy (I'm not someone who needs the most expensive cars/things), so I open myself to financial blessings so I can further bless this earth (I do know that I want to have land/grow my own food/have animals/a storefront) as well as bless others materially, socially, emotionally, spiritually and physically. As I will it, so it mote be. 

1/2/2021 UPDATE: This past year I did sell my first spell jars and readings! It was crazy because as soon as I posted about it, I had 2 customers in the same day! I look forward to expanding and growing on all of my ideas and sharing that with others! :) 


⊹My income and career is built around helping others and most importantly love and joy for what I do, how I do it, and who I do it for.
What I do is rewarding for the soul.

​⊹I have visited Colorado.   May 20-27, 2019
My little brother "conveniently" ended up having a hockey tournament in Denver Colorado right around the time of my graduation. It was so funny because I made my vision board and my mom called me about a week after! Coincidence? I think not!!
This is the second time I've been and it's always so fun to explore! 

​⊹I have been to Door County.  July 18-25, 2019
Alex's family owns a house in Door County that we are staying at and I am beyond excited, it's something I heard a lot about growing up in Wisconsin (a lot of people vacation there) so it will be nice to finally see it myself, especially with someone I love so much. I feel like it will be a small taste of what our future will be like, and I feel like it will be the motivation we need to endure the next year apart before we come together in union. 

07/22 Update: We are going back to Door county again! Since my first trip I have gone one more time, so this will be my third time going! (Last time we went with our friends Kelly & Tolosa and it was such a good trip). We will be staying for the beginning half of August and I love being up there. The trees, the plants, and the water are all so beautiful and peaceful and Alex and I always have an amazing time! 

​⊹I went back to Kenosha.   Summer 2019
I went back to my hometown (3rd-12th grade). Alex and I stayed a night at his family home, and it was so nice to be in a space full of such warmth, love, laughter and joy, a collection of my baby's childhood all wrapped in one time and space. 
There is something intimate about showing someone your childhood bedroom (Something I cannot have because my family and I moved and move around often)  so it was amazing to connect to and feel a space so filled by his energy. Sweet too, to see and feel the items his once little hands touched. 
Since then, I have also stayed during Fall Break, and will also be there for Winter Break. 
Plus, in the time between these visits, my Mom and Xander also moved back to the Midwest and are now in Illinois. I am excited beyond belief knowing I will be visiting them, Alex, his family, and our friends for Winter Break here soon.

​⊹I grow each and everyday. 

​⊹I react from a place of love.
Sometimes I still catch myself acting out of fear or past experiences but I am beginning to see the patterns of old conditioning/survival patterns more and more. From here I am able to better breathe, ground myself, and react from a place of loving and conscious awareness. With that...... 

​⊹I am a spiritual being having a human experience.
I am becoming more gentle and loving towards myself during big or difficult emotions in a way I tried to but deeply struggled with in the past. Although this is something I am still working on, I fall deeper in love with myself so much more each and every day. Because of that I honor myself and my feelings and follow my heart more. I set boundaries with myself and others because I love myself and others so much.
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⊹I am not overwhelmed by my emotions.
Again this is something I am continuously working on (especially as a cancer moon). I am trying to push away my feelings less, to face them and to let them run through me! 

​⊹I trust the universe and I trust myself. As long as I believe in myself, the universe will meet me more than halfway and push me there.

​⊹I kindle my inner child and remember to be full of light, take life lightheartedly, and look at life with eyes of wonder and magic. 

​⊹My chakras are aligned and balanced. I make sure to take check in with myself and nurture myself.

​⊹I have a morning practice and ritual. 
I am so much happier when I start my days off like this. My morning routine currently looks like this on a typical school day (weekends are a little nice and more drawn out because I have more time before I have to get up, get out and do something.)

• Make my bed
• Express gratitude + set intentions
• Read my daily spiritual message books (I will list them here later) 
• Do a tarot or oracle reading. Recently, I have been drawn towards Sahara Rose's A Yogic Path. It is so stunning and empowering. Its art was also created by the person who created my other deck (The Moonchild Tarot)
• Get my food ready
• Get ready (dressed, make up) etc
• On my way to school I typically listen to music or podcasts. I also make sure to get in flow whenever I can by doing hand tai chai haha. :) It's so nice and beautiful to feel the vibration of sound within my hands and whole body. 

Obviously this changes throughout the year based on my needs, but having a devoted practice whatever that looks like for me at the time always helps me connect to the voice from within and act from my highest self! 

​⊹ I am balanced and healthy.
Considering my health 2 years ago, I was 92lbs, literally pooped (more like peed) out of my asshole like 5 times a day, had random rashes on my armpit/fingers & felt like I was being pushed out of my body then, AND that I was going to die every time I slept lol,  I feel so much more at home in my body now. Although I definitely still would like to gain weight (I'm fluctuating between 99-105 lbs right now), I am way more comfortable and accepting of my body. I feel more relaxed and more free within its space. Instead of it being something I feel disconnected to or confined to, it is now a vehicle for my expression and the divine temple of my pure and sweet soul. 

​⊹Replace all my products for natural and organic. 

1/2/2021 UPDATE: This is something I have been gradually doing! Like anything in life, it is okay to phase things out over time! I have been eating mostly organic this year which I am proud of (my health has come a long ways from my spiritual awakening a few years ago) and for that I am so thankful! I have also been more mindful of the ingredients in my make up and beauty products. This is essential because women put on and use so many different kinds of products. Many of these products contain ingredients/toxins/chemicals that can inhibit our bodies natural system and affect our hormones/balance, after all, the skin is our biggest organ and absorbs more than you know. As such, I have been switching out most of my beauty products for healthier/sustainable alternatives as well (tackling it both inside with food and outside with beauty) and look forward to exploring and trying new options this year as well!

​⊹I stretch everyday. 
My goals for stretching:
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​1/2/2021 UPDATE: I've been stretching a lot more this year and definitely notice a big difference in my body! We hold a lot of trauma/memories in our physical body and I feel a lot more open/less restricted than I have previously! Although I am not quite at my goals yet, I am making progress and for that I am so proud! :) There were weeks in 2019/2020 that I followed my stretching practices religiously, and weeks where I fell off of it. But like anything, I am proud of myself for doing more than I have in previous years and look forward to connecting with and opening up to my body more and more in the years to come. 

⊹I work out or do some sort of physical activity everyday.

​⊹My periods are no longer something I fear. I connect to my womb space within and honor myself. I am not afraid and I do not hurt.

​⊹I can hold a handstand.
This is something I've been practicing for a while here and there and I've seen so much improvement in my balance/comfort my wrists used to hurt so bad) Now I am just working on holding it longer and longer and maintaining my center!

​⊹I listen to my body and my body listens to me.

​⊹I am a conscious breather, each breath fuels my body with the resources it needs.
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1/2/2021 UPDATE: These last couple goals are something I am going to continue to work on in this coming year. Like stretching there were times that these ideas/concepts were amazing and flowed naturally to me this year and times that I struggled with holding this goal. Overall though, I am closer to achieving these goals than previous years and for that I celebrate my journey knowing I am consciously coming closer to creating what I desire in all areas of my life!